Messed Up.

Time = 5:20PM

Mood = Pushed too far

Music = Ghost Town by the Shiny Toy Guns

What I SHOULD be doing = Reading/Writing and essay

Random Fact About Me = Injustice pisses me off.

So, there's this one guy who's a friend of one of my friends/people who dump on me. He's a troll, in the ultimate definition of the word. Really, he's one of the few people I can actually come as far as to say that I hate. His life goal is pretty much to piss off those around him, and he claims satisfaction whenever he succeeds. For a while now, I've been refusing to give him a reaction, because I didn't want to give him the satisfaction. He pushed me too far today. I can handle him being an ass to me, I can usually handle that fine, but when he puts down one of my favorite Authors, and calls me a soviet spy because I love them, I was done. He's such a fucking asshole.

And you know what I think? I think people like that are like that because they're so fucking insecure. I think, they're the kind of people where nobody likes them anyway, so they figure that if they're the biggest asses in the world, then people actually have a reason to hate them. What a miserable, backwards existence. I may hate people like that, but I also pity them. It's such a cowardly little cop out.

The other thing that pisses me off is this friend of mine has some abuse issues, and she's told me that this dude reminds her of her abuser BEFORE he started abusing her. And that's why she's drawn to him. She doesn't even recognize the falacy of that sentence. She's drawn to him because he's like her abuser. Doesn't that mean he has more capacity to become an abuser. DO THESE PEOPLE EVER EVEN LISTEN TO THEMSELVES?! Ugh. It pisses me off so much.

And then this friend of mine says stuff like "Yeah, he's an ass, but I know that he'll be there no matter what when I need him." That's so wrong! I mean, surely there are people who will be there no matter what who AREN'T asses. I mean, even though this stuff pisses me off, it bugs me because she doesn't get what's going on no matter how much I try to explain it to her. I'm still here for her no matter what. I know that if she needed to talk at 3AM, I'd be there, and I'm not an asshole.


Nonetheless, this guy is going to find out what happens when you push me too far. I've kept all my stuff inside because I didn't want to give him the pleasure of seeing me react, but I'm done with that. I'm going to be brutally honest with this guy because I have nothing to lose. I would never choose him as a friend, and I would feel no loss not having him in my life any more. And who knows, maybe he'll wake up and realize that it is a mad fail to push everybody away by being an ass. Maybe he'll realize that even his GIRLFRIEND (he's an idiot who insists on being "oldfashioned" and calls her his "ladyfriend").

AND ANOTHER THING! He claims to be oldfashioned, and live by oldfashioned morals (including manners). The thing is, manners are developed to make those around you feel as comfortable as possible. Therefore, he is failing at what he's trying to live as his life by striving to make those around him as uncomfortable as possible. I don't know, maybe he just wants somebody to stand up to him. Well, I'm going to be that somebody, because that last push was the straw that broke the camel's back . He can walk all over the rest of the world for all I care, but he won't walk all over me.


Wish me luck!