Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Okay, this is getting ridiculous

Time = 1:48 PM

Music = La Traviata by Gioachino Rossini

Mood = Mild with a chance of flurries.

What I SHOULD be doing = Who knows?

Random Fact about me = I seem to store music I listen to in my head in the form of a continuous soundtrack

At this point, Annoying Friend is starting to creep me out. I mean, there's limits to friendly.... following, you know? There's a point when it stops being mimicry and becomes creepy, and I have a feeling we're reaching that point. And that creeps me out. Does that make her my stalker? Who knows.

She seems to enjoy copying me. At first I was wondering, you know, if she really admires me or something, and because of that wants to copy me. I mean, that was weird, but I figure, whatever. But not she's starting to get parasitic. She's trying to sink herself into my life, and it feels like she's this little parasite attached to every part of my life, to the point that I actually have no idea how to separate her from me without losing half of my life. That creeps me out.

I mean like, she's copied me a lot. Thus far, she's followed me to two groups, changed her major to match my current one (thankfully, she won't be able to follow me to music...), she's liked two of the guys that I liked (I've cast them both off as not worth my time)... I mean, that one is like "Yay, Dragonista's castoffs! Woohoo!". How ridiculous is that? She's also followed me to my church. And in my church, as well as those two groups, whatever I do, she is close behind in doing the identical thing. I try to ignore it, but it's really distracting to see somebody start drawing seconds after you start drawing, almost fall over when you almost fall over. And it's not just that. It seems like everything I say, she had to copy and say "Oh me too." I'm pretty sure if I started talking about ANYTHING she would be like "Oh me too."

The thing is, she's NOT me, and it's really starting to creep me out how she seems to think she IS me. And she keeps making friends with my friends, which is going to make it even harder to separate from her when I do. I don't understand how these people work. It bugs me, because I never seem to recognize them until they're already parasitically involved in my life, and I feel like in order to break from this parasite, I like, need to leave this school or something.

And that pisses me off. Why do I have to be the one to leave, when she's the one at fault? I don't know. I need to think about this more. I wonder if there's anything that's like "emotional parasite removal techniques". Who knows. Guh.

Please refer me to and emotional parasite removers you know, thanks.

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