Wait, what?

Time = 11:02PM

Mood = stunned

Music = Florence and the Machine

What I SHOULD be doing = Sleeping, like as not

Random fact about me = I am a complete manga and anime otaku. shh.

I think I just did something crazy.

Actually, I know I just did something crazy.

I quit university.

I just sent in my letter of withdrawal by email, I've made it facebook official, there's no turning back now. And I don't want to turn back. I know that this is a good decision for me. I made a huge decision, and the only thing to do now is stand by it and take whatever comes. And that, my friends, is an electrifying, though terrifying concept.

I'm still reeling from this. I'm stunned at the decision I just made, and amazed at how fast my life has done a 180 turn and is sending me in a completely different direction than what I was thinking I was doomed for only a few weeks ago.

Instead of jetting off to University in a few days, I'm staying here. In a few months time, I'm going to move to a city, and get a job. There are things that I need to get in order, like a place to live, and a roommate, a job. I'm going to take piano lessons and better my abilities for a year, get myself more confident, and then try University again in a year.

I'm scared. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't. This is entirely unknown for me. I don't know anything about living on my own, and I haven't had a decent job. Ever. It's like going cliff jumping for the first time. Everyone tells you it's going to be awesome, and you believe them, but as you go to the edge of the cliff for the first time, all you can think is "what the fuck did I just sign myself up for?"

But there it is. I've quit university and am taking a flying leap off a cliff. Figuratively, darlings, figuratively. I refuse to go to a school that charges me upwards of 23-27 thousand dollars for a year, when another school charges only 14 thousand. I hit a fork in the roads, and I turned left, so to speak, and that's all there is to it.

I can explain til I'm blue in the face why I'm doing it, but the fact of the matter is, in the long run, the best answer (and probably not so acceptable) is that it just FEELS right. Feels scary as hell, to be sure, but it feels right. This is the first decision in my life that I've ever made based only on myself, and not on anybody else around me, and for that, I'm very, very proud of myself. I'm an adult now, and the only person I can make decisions for is me, and I've just done it.

Scared as hell, but I'm still smiling as I take my flying leap.

Wish me luck,

Dragonista