Yeah, I have Changed.

Time = 10:09PM

Mood = Bitchy

Music = Bryn by Vampire Weekend

What I SHOULD be doing = Probably apologizing to the woman I'm going to bitch about.

Okay, so, New person introduction. Lol. You didn't think that I'd stop blogging once I got away from school, did you? No, there are annoying people everywhere. I swear they stalk me.

Meet Stick-In-The-Mud, or SITM for short. I went to high school with her. Ninth Grade to Twelfth. The funny thing? SITM used to be my best friend. We were inseparable. We laughed about shit, we cried about shit. She was probably one of the most important people in my life. I valued her opinion of me more than any other friends.

So what happened? Why am I bitching about her? Well, I went to University. And she did not. While I was in Uni, learning shit, and growing up, she stayed in our home town and worked at Superstore, pining away for her unrequited love in high school. Real classy, I know. Well anyway, I have changed a lot, since a year ago. A year ago, I was a simpering little idiot who couldn't stand up for herself worth shit. I never said anything that might step on people's toes, and let people walk all over me. A year ago, I was an insecure mess who didn't think she deserved anything good.

Now, I am stronger. -breaks into song- THAN YESTERDAY, AIN'T NOTHING BUT ANOTHER DAY MY - anyway. I don't let people shit on me, and I sure as hell think I deserve something good. I don't sit in a corner and mope any more. I'm a happy, healthy woman, on her way in life. I have goals, I have dreams, and no fucktard is going to tell me I can't do it. No siree, I know where I'm headed, and I'm going there. Dreams or Bust. That's me, Dragonista.

She thinks I'm an idiot with money. What with the fact that my tuition is 27K, and I'm in the music program, which, let's face it, doesn't bring a ton of money at first. She's told me that it's stupid. And I told her to fuck off, because my money is none of her fucking business. To be honest, recently, I've been snapping at her a lot. Part of the reason is that I'm comfortable with her, but the truth is, I hate where she's at right now.

Because she's exactly where she was a year ago. She hasn't changed at all. She hasn't matured at all. She's the exact same person she was when I left my home town. And now, we're suddenly at odds. I'm not the person who left, and she wants me to be. She hates who I am now. She wants me to change back. But I can't change back. Who I am is who I am. Telling me to change back is like telling an ape to fly. It ain't gonna work, baby.

Oh well. I guess this ape should sprout some wings.

Speaking of..., A lot of shit's gonna go down when pigs learn to fly.